Don, I am so glad to meet you here - everything you write about is very-very close to me.
I have to say that I’m just starting to open myself up - thanks to my new boyfriend, with whom I feel so good every time... Therefore, your amazing and perfect experience with your wife (especially for a beginner like me) helps me a lot to feel and understand myself better.
In life, I am an independent calm girl who relies only on herself and likes to be stronger or cooler than the guys around. But with D., I suddenly felt that I could show myself on the other side - an innocent girl who is happy to serve her master... This is an amazing sensation for me, previously inaccessible - before that I did not want to feel weak and submissive with anyone in my private life. Because for me this is about complete openness and 100% trust in my partner.
Reading your answer, I want to say that now (when I am surprised to see how my fantasies suddenly began to become reality) I Really like to feel this contrast for both sides. When I get weaker, I feel the growing strength of D., and it turns me on, so that I forget about everything and just live every moment with him, with such a strong and sexy man.
I am happy to express myself in a different way whenever possible.
It is So pleasant...
But it is even more pleasant from this gentle state to feel his masculinity and brutality, real masculine strength - never in my life have I had such sensations. It's a cosmic pleasure...
Now I see that both of us, me and D., can be both gentle and submissive, as well as strong and dominant. But when we are together, I feel in myself only a weak innocent side mostly - probably because for too many years I was strong and independent so I got enough experience.
So now I just drink that contrast feelings and live by this...