Have I lost control of our lifestyle?

[Brandon Calimesa]

My fiancé lives in another town nearly 4 hours away by car and so I have no real visibility on what she does. We are supposed to get married in 3 weeks. Anyway I get this message which made my heart stop. Eyes burn and pulse jump. Completely off because I never expected it. First of all she usually cucks me leading up to and when I am near so I can enjoy her. But when she asked if she can fuck this guy, I knew I can't taste or have her, I knew that I will get no cuckold reward and all what she does is without closure. Instance I understood this and I didn't like it so much. Yet, I am happy she shared with me and decided to trust me so I of course melted to her needs. I sit here now with mixed emotions because I also realize she fucking guys for money, not for so much the same ethical reasons I expected of a cuckoldress. So my push for her to cuckold me might as well pushed her over the edge of now fucking guys only for money. Already decided on porn but i think what she does now is another level.

Naturally, I am afraid that I am losing control. Losing the nerves and creating a monster. I worry that she will be more careless, unsafe and put us at risk for money. Shit! Not exactly what I want but if I push back at her, she will just go silent and hide from me everything. I don't know what to do? I wish this forum had more people around because I would like their input, support perhaps. I don't know what is the next move I should make and how I should be. Embrace or try to talk to her stubborn self or get angry or sad or cry. Crazy.

 

[ILoveSex]

Whats wrong with girls. I have similar crazy situation with my wife. But if you already have such stories before the wedding, then should be many adventures ahead. Think you should hug her and say that you want to be together no matter what

 

[SexySamurai]

Creating a monster - it is really possible if you let her do whatever she wants.
But if you define boundaries that cannot be violated, everything should be fine.
The main thing is to do this before getting married, I guess.

And I think you know what to do.
In every difficult situation you can just ask yourself - and this advice will be always the best.
So just listen your heart - what do you feel that you want to do?

Maybe accept your fiance with her imperfections and take care of her so that she felt that it could rely on you and trust you, tell you about everything and know what she will not be rejected or ignored by you?

Then just do it.

 

[white_rabbit]

Whats wrong with girls. I have similar crazy situation with my wife. But if you already have such stories before the wedding, then should be many adventures ahead. Think you should hug her and say that you want to be together no matter what

Just fuck her. Or ask me or another bull to do it, and watch, then join. And everyone will be happy.

 

[white_rabbit]

My fiancé lives in another town nearly 4 hours away by car and so I have no real visibility on what she does. We are supposed to get married in 3 weeks. Anyway I get this message which made my heart stop. Eyes burn and pulse jump. Completely off because I never expected it. First of all she usually cucks me leading up to and when I am near so I can enjoy her. But when she asked if she can fuck this guy, I knew I can't taste or have her, I knew that I will get no cuckold reward and all what she does is without closure. Instance I understood this and I didn't like it so much. Yet, I am happy she shared with me and decided to trust me so I of course melted to her needs. I sit here now with mixed emotions because I also realize she fucking guys for money, not for so much the same ethical reasons I expected of a cuckoldress. So my push for her to cuckold me might as well pushed her over the edge of now fucking guys only for money. Already decided on porn but i think what she does now is another level.

Naturally, I am afraid that I am losing control. Losing the nerves and creating a monster. I worry that she will be more careless, unsafe and put us at risk for money. Shit! Not exactly what I want but if I push back at her, she will just go silent and hide from me everything. I don't know what to do? I wish this forum had more people around because I would like their input, support perhaps. I don't know what is the next move I should make and how I should be. Embrace or try to talk to her stubborn self or get angry or sad or cry. Crazy.

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She is satisfied, so whats wrong? Cuckolding is not about 100% control - different.

 

[steveh]

so from what i can see she is fucking for money?

 

[Brandon Calimesa]

She believes a lover must give money or presents + have big cock + not take too much of her time. If he has a small cock or no money/gifts or dirty or just not someone she is into - she tells them to fuck off. Really likes programmers, engineers and smart guys. Not like she working escort or something. Just in her mind she is young and nice body, why she should give it away. Either should be on camera (porn) to make money or be as I said, combination above.

I actually like this because it keeps her from forming strong bonds. Just sees them as booty call with benefits. I noticed she don't kiss much at all her other men but with me she gets tongue deep.

She said she enjoys most seeing my eyes and feeding me her naughty sex afterwards but I suspect she enjoys also the money and freedoms!

 

[steveh]

She believes a lover must give money or presents + have big cock + not take too much of her time. If he has a small cock or no money/gifts or dirty or just not someone she is into - she tells them to fuck off. Really likes programmers, engineers and smart guys. Not like she working escort or something. Just in her mind she is young and nice body, why she should give it away. Either should be on camera (porn) to make money or be as I said, combination above.

I actually like this because it keeps her from forming strong bonds. Just sees them as booty call with benefits. I noticed she don't kiss much at all her other men but with me she gets tongue deep.

She said she enjoys most seeing my eyes and feeding me her naughty sex afterwards but I suspect she enjoys also the money and freedoms!

I i suspect she enjoys all that dick