don_jetman
Moderator
This fucking pandemic. What do I write about when there's nothing to write about?
It's been months since L has fucked another man. Not like that hasn't happened before
- we do go through our libidinous ups and downs. But it's different when we know we
can't. It's different when the "normal" simmers and waits, then boils with the sudden
hunger for a third to share L's body.
For L, it's often about submission, especially after a long period of "normal". It's
about her desire for well-muscled satyrs with an expert sense of how to use her, to
satisfy her, sometimes over and over - a guy who is adept at teasing out the finer,
almost imperceptible triggers of her darker imaginings. Then again, it can often be
something more mundane - an unexpected, uncontrollable attraction or chemistry when
the right man dares to let her know he'd fuck her, and that he's absolutely certain
he will.
For me, it's always been watching L morph from innocent wife to dirty siren,
sometimes in those seconds when I least expect it - a man we meet whom I'd never
expect, or one I'm sure can seduce her if she lets him. It's the tension at times -
will she let him, want him, or does she see through him to the shallow insincerity at
his core? She loves to keep me guessing, flipping from merely friendly to "I want
your cock" with men I may least suspect. Whether I'm right or not - whether I watch
them fuck or not, knowing she's free to get great sex from them is exhilarating.
Watching the seduction, whether from near or far, or her orgasms that reveal
surprising nuances not recognized before, has always added to the intimacy of our
marriage. Sometimes her orgasm can say so much more than hours of talk about how he
was "different".
But when forced to go long stretches of time between the kinkiest sex with her Dom, I
have to admit that her hunger for submission is contagious. There are times when I
long to see us dominated as a couple. Role playing with a powerful man who demands
deference from us, taking her, playing with her like a predator with its prey,
ordering me to watch helplessly or even tied to a chair while he uses her body at the
mercy of his perverted whims - it all excites an empty spot in me that once filled,
only rises up again as time passes. I've given up trying to understand it. By now
it's enough to know that over time my head will fill with these fantasies, slowly,
one at a time, until they become the sole driver of my libido. Waiting until L's
submissive cravings and mine peak together can be torture for either of us, but when
the time is right, drenching our mutual hunger in sometimes surprising taboos is a
drug that keeps on giving.
Over the course of months without active hotwifing/cuckoldry, we've had waves of
desperation-related nervousness and creeping celibacy woven into the "normal" sex
that we always enjoy between role playing. Our fantasies continue to rise to the
surface, building until we try to find our way back to "normal" with the best
substitutes we can manage to create. I've thought about Dr. Bill's nighttime
wandering fever dream of fear and frustration in Eyes Wide Shut, and the newspaper he
buys with the headline in huge font reminding him he's "Lucky to Be Alive". Maybe we
should be satisfied with that.
It's been months since L has fucked another man. Not like that hasn't happened before
- we do go through our libidinous ups and downs. But it's different when we know we
can't. It's different when the "normal" simmers and waits, then boils with the sudden
hunger for a third to share L's body.
For L, it's often about submission, especially after a long period of "normal". It's
about her desire for well-muscled satyrs with an expert sense of how to use her, to
satisfy her, sometimes over and over - a guy who is adept at teasing out the finer,
almost imperceptible triggers of her darker imaginings. Then again, it can often be
something more mundane - an unexpected, uncontrollable attraction or chemistry when
the right man dares to let her know he'd fuck her, and that he's absolutely certain
he will.
For me, it's always been watching L morph from innocent wife to dirty siren,
sometimes in those seconds when I least expect it - a man we meet whom I'd never
expect, or one I'm sure can seduce her if she lets him. It's the tension at times -
will she let him, want him, or does she see through him to the shallow insincerity at
his core? She loves to keep me guessing, flipping from merely friendly to "I want
your cock" with men I may least suspect. Whether I'm right or not - whether I watch
them fuck or not, knowing she's free to get great sex from them is exhilarating.
Watching the seduction, whether from near or far, or her orgasms that reveal
surprising nuances not recognized before, has always added to the intimacy of our
marriage. Sometimes her orgasm can say so much more than hours of talk about how he
was "different".
But when forced to go long stretches of time between the kinkiest sex with her Dom, I
have to admit that her hunger for submission is contagious. There are times when I
long to see us dominated as a couple. Role playing with a powerful man who demands
deference from us, taking her, playing with her like a predator with its prey,
ordering me to watch helplessly or even tied to a chair while he uses her body at the
mercy of his perverted whims - it all excites an empty spot in me that once filled,
only rises up again as time passes. I've given up trying to understand it. By now
it's enough to know that over time my head will fill with these fantasies, slowly,
one at a time, until they become the sole driver of my libido. Waiting until L's
submissive cravings and mine peak together can be torture for either of us, but when
the time is right, drenching our mutual hunger in sometimes surprising taboos is a
drug that keeps on giving.
Over the course of months without active hotwifing/cuckoldry, we've had waves of
desperation-related nervousness and creeping celibacy woven into the "normal" sex
that we always enjoy between role playing. Our fantasies continue to rise to the
surface, building until we try to find our way back to "normal" with the best
substitutes we can manage to create. I've thought about Dr. Bill's nighttime
wandering fever dream of fear and frustration in Eyes Wide Shut, and the newspaper he
buys with the headline in huge font reminding him he's "Lucky to Be Alive". Maybe we
should be satisfied with that.